So Long Thunder Thighs!

I can check a few things off my to-do list

I made the appointment with my med doc - to verify my prescriptions and get a letter of support from her about the surgery - that appointment is December 10.

I made an appointment with a psychologist for the pre-surgery evaluation - that is on December 7 - I actually can get two appointments out of the way that day - meet with the doc and take the tests. So then only one more appointment two weeks after that one.

I also got my bariatric evaluation appointment setup for Jan 4 and was put on the cancel list in case there are any earlier appointments.

I need to find the weight watcher weight recordings I had so I can do the diet history for the paperwork and then I think I can send that in.

Moving forward - gonna stay on top of this so I can get it done soon.

I have been thinking a little about the psychological changes - and actually that is probably my apprehension. I have always been the fat girl, the fattest sister, the fattest daughter. So when I am normal size those labels are gone - that identity that I wasn't necessarily happy with but accepted as my own will be gone. So then who will I be? Also - the other thing I was thinking about - for some reason in my head (coping?) I have always seen myself as powerful and strong because I was bigger - and seen those small or thin women as getting by on their size - needing help or not being safe. So that scares me a little too. I realize these seem irrational - but just my thoughts.